Wake Me Up When September Ends

Assalamu'alaikum =)

Finally September has come to its end. Its been a hectic month for me, because I was rushing going to faculty back and forth in order to complete the remaining clinical requirement. Then at 2pm I would rush back going home to prepare myself before I started my work as part-timer. Alhamdulillah my requirements has completed and everything left now is folder checking so that my patients will be under good care after I completed my case on them and inventory for the cubicle I used throughout the two months so that the next student can use it in good condition.

Honestly, it was tiring. But I am glad that its just for a month. In fact I am grateful that I managed to secure a job before I complete my study. Hence for the next few months, at least I have something to do and a positive cash flow while waiting for my graduation, interview with SPA and getting placement for compulsory service. In addition, I am happy with my job, though for some people it is not suitable with my qualification but hey, do I care? 

I hope the next phase my life will be eased and I am preparing myself so that I am ready to enter a new phase, where the lesson of life actually begin =)

Insha Allah~

Sarjana Muda Pembedahan Pergigian (Youtube) (?)

Di sebalik sebuah tampalan,

Ada cavity preparation yang perlu difikir sesuai dengan jenis tampalan.

Ada aspek retention yang perlu diteliti supaya tampalan bertahan lama.

Ada aspek perlindungan pada akar gigi supaya tampalan tak menyebabkan tindak balas dan mengakibatkan sakit di kemudian hari.

Tampalan tak boleh tinggi, nanti gigitan jadi tak selesa, juga boleh sebabkan sisa makanan tersangkut, tak boleh juga terlalu rendah, nanti jadi ruang sisa makanan berkumpul, berus gigi tak efektif.

Contact point dengan gigi sebelah perlu ada, kalau floss lalu pun terasa longgar hatta sikit sekalipun boleh rasa tak selesa sebab sisa makanan boleh terselit.

Oral hygiene pesakit pun perlu diambil kira, kalau pada tahap yang tidak memuaskan, perlu bagi oral hygiene instruction dahulu, supaya tampalan boleh bertahan lama dalam keadaan mulut yang bersih.

Banyak lagi dan aku  belajar banyak benda dari satu kes ke satu kes (pengalaman tak banyak lagi) tapi satu gigi yang perlukan tampalan tak sama dengan gigi yang lain. Sentiasa ada beza dan kami melihat pesakit secara menyeluruh, bukan dari sudut tampalan semata-mata. Kerana kami merawat manusia, bukan gigi sahaja.

Oleh itu wajarlah andai doktor-doktor gigi terkilan dan kesal apabila pesakit memilih untuk mendapatkan rawatan pergigian dari mereka yang tidak bertauliah, jauh sekali yang tidak mendapat pendidikan dalam bidang ini, sebaliknya sekadar hasil tontonan di Youtube. Kerana di sebalik satu tampalan, terlalu banyak yang kami fikirkan dalam masa beberapa minit membuat tampalan itu.

Cabang ilmu ini satu disiplin. Andai niat kau tulus, tempuhlah jalan yang betul, kerana itu akhlak sebenar seorang penuntut ilmu yang mahu ilmunya bermanfaat kepada orang lain.

Gadis Perantau

Saban pagi dia lihat gadis itu, duduk di bangku yang sama, berkongsi dengannya tren sealiran. Dan si gadis akan turun di stesen yang sama. Dunianya saban hari tertumpu pada destinasi itu. Namun dia tahu saban hari si gadis menjejakkan kaki ke destinasi berbeza di seluruh dunia.

Kerana kelmarin dia perhati si gadis tenggelam dalam pembacaannya berkisar watak berlatar tempatkan England, semalam dia lihat si gadis sudah sampai ke Jepun dan hari ini si gadis sudah mendapat 'visa' untuk dia berada di India.

Sesungguhnya dia si gadis perantau, meskipun setiap sen yang diperolehinya saban hari dari destinasi yang satu itu belum cukup untuknya terbang menikmati keindahan budaya yang berbeza di seluruh dunia.

useless

There are times where I told myself that I am useless. When I have to do certain procedure repeatedly, when I failed to achieve my treatment aim for that day, when I failed to answer simple questions correctly, when all of sudden my logic left at home during the time I need it the most and when people make fun of my mistakes (yes I easily get offended, less sense of humor when I accidentally said or did wrong things).

During those times, I was on the verge of giving up. I considered some course like sewing or baking that I may enroll if I found myself failed to finish the challenging dental school. I also considered pursuing my passion, which is writing and maybe I can enroll myself in any literature course. Unfortunately, I once think that maybe its better to stop living when I was too scared to face the fearful reality.

But then there are people who prove that I am as useless as I thought. There are people who see kindness and positiveness in me. There are people who appreciates my small effort in proving my ability. There are people who directly and indirectly encourages me to move forward, though there are hiccups along the road.

" Its a better place since you came along," Better Place, Rachel Platten

Dear self, and for whoever experiencing their lowest point of life at this moment. You are used to yourself,  to your features that you sometimes failed to see the bright side of yours. Those are the sides that will automatically sparkle when you do things sincerely. For every cloud has a silver lining, hence when you stumbled while on your way to your goals, there must be something that will make you smile. There must be something that will give comfort to your tired soul. 

Give yourself time to lick your battle wound. Don't stop yourself from crying, because sometimes the only way to appreciate joy is to experience sadness (Inside Out).

You have Him. When you cry in your sujood, imagine that you are crying on your mom's lap while telling her things you are disappointed of. Tell Him that you are not strong and you need Him to be strong enough to bear the test you are going through. And ask Him to help you go through it and ease the journey.

So, you are not useless. In fact you are needed by everyone in your life, though they may seems dont need you. But live your life so that your presence is needed and your absence is missed by them.

=)

one book a month

Assalamu'alaikum =)

I love reading so much, thanks to my dad for bringing us to library since we were small besides buying me and my siblings lots of books, be it story books or books related to our academics. Well I enjoyed reading 'Buku Contoh Karangan' too when I had nothing to read haha.

Last month I received my last BB1M (insha Allah I'm graduating soon, please pray huhu). For the past 4 years, I had to put dental books as my priority thus I faced the problems of buying books from another genre. I have my scholarship but those are for my bags, tudungs and all sorts of baju and jubah as well as my food hunting. So, no portion for books and it was my biggest mistake. Never do that again, kay?

Fortunately, I've bought all dental related books that I think to be essential for me as an undergraduate so this year, I get to spend my BB1M on non dental books. Say hurray! So during Putrajaya International Book Fair, I spent more than half of my vouchers on books that have been in my mind for the past few months. Most books are in Malay, so to avoid feeling guilty for not reading English, I picked a book, with the title 'Anne Frank: The Diary of Young Girl'.

I always have this kind of problem: what book should I buy? Particularly English books. Because I'm not a fast reader and this problem get worse when the book that I read is not in my mother tongue language. I'm not so into romance but I never reject reading those kind of book. I'm more into thriller unfortunately I have problem with time and whenever I pause my reading, my interest towards the book slowly fade away. Hence whenever I came across English books, I would pick a book regarding based on true story. 

So, that's how I own this book.

Courtesy of Google Image because my phone's camera stop working since last year which I have no idea why so I had to search for the image. I learned about the author (Anne Frank) from some blogs that I visited. Because it is based on true story plus the time setting is during the war, I keen to know the story. According to reviews, this story is inspiring. I guess I made a right choice.

Can't wait to finish the book. Anyway, since I bought a lot on last book fair, I have to set my target to read at least a book in a month. My wish is to travel around the world but currently I have many limitations. In order to fulfill that, I can travel to many places at any time without any limit through reading. So, wish me luck and may I get to achieve my goal =)

For those who are interested to know the story, get your copy from your nearby bookstore. I hope you guys enjoy reading it. 

By the way, if you wish to share your favourite book, don't hesitate to drop your comment on the comment section below. Thanks for reading =)

harga sebuah compliance

Assalamu'alaikum =)

adalah menjadi satu kewajipan bagi kami mengamalkan pertanyaan berkenaan ubat-ubatan yang patient ambil semasa history taking. hari ni turn aku sebagai assistant dan aku telah ditugaskan untuk menyalin dan memfotostat senarai ubat-ubat yang patient ambil untuk simpanan dalam folder dia. patient seorang penghidap penyakit jantung dan kencing manis jadi bayangkanlah betapa panjang berjelanya senarai ubat dia.

sambil aku fotostat tu aku tengoklah senarai ubat-ubat tu. ada dekat 9 jenis jugaklah. sambil tengok tu sambil aku ingat ubat ni class apa, untuk masalah apa, hypertension ke cholesterol lowering drug ke. benda-benda camni memang kena ada kat hujung jari je tau adik-adik dan kawan-kawan bakal doktor gigi sekalian. dan kat setiap jenis ubat tu dia ada tulis bekalan untuk berapa lama dan harga ubat tu.

dan, cuba teka harga Clopidogrel (ubat cair darah) tu berapa?

RM 972 tau tak? aku terkejut gila. murah lagi handphone aku kot!!

aku tak sure itu harga semasa ke tak tapi seriously sangatlah tak terjangkau dek akal aku. tapi sebabkan patient dapat privilege so semua ubat-ubat beliau yang dekat 9 jenis tu harganya PERCUMA.

which reminds me of my dad and some people that i know, whom taking various types of medication because of their systemic problem.

ada beberapa pesakit yang aku jumpa dengan selambanya mengaku tak makan ubat yang doktor bagi.ada juga yang bagi testimoni tanpa memakan ubat yang doktor bagi sebaliknya dengan hanya menelan jus cap-agama tekanan darahnya sudah normal dan buah pinggang kembali berfungsi seperti sedia kala setelah disahkan menghidap kencing manis dan tidak terkawal sejak belas hingga puluh tahun dahulu.

dan kebanyakan pesakit ni jatuh dalam kategori, berhak dapat ubat yang pelbagai jenis tu pada harga yang rendah, bahkan percuma. seandainyalah diorang tahu berapa juta agaknya diorang dah bazirkan dengan cara tak compliant pada ubat dan biarkan ia expired *geleng kepala*

aku tahu negara kita tak aman, dah kucar kacir jugak sekarang ni. tapi dalam aspek kesihatan, aku tabik hormat kat kerajaan kita. maksud aku, polisi yang kerajaan amalkan. ubat-ubatan ada subsidi, kalau warganegara tu alahai bayar seringgit je dah dapat rawatan. even kalau bukan warganegara pun takdenye kau dihalau kalau sakit kat emergency tu just kena bayar lebih sikit je dari warganegara pasti ditolak masuk juga ke dalam wad untuk rawatan. senang kata nikmat kesihatan kat negara kita ni cukup luas. luas sangat sampaikan...

ada antara kita tak reti bersyukur.

kita sibuk post tentang education kat Malaysia patut tiru negara itu, doktor lelaki kat hospital kerajaan Malaysia patut diharamkan dari menyambut bayi macam hospital kat satu negara tu dan macam-macam lagi. cuba kalau Malaysia tiru negara-negara yang korang dok bangga tu untuk aspek kewangan kesihatan. mampu korang?

dalam subjek Community Dentistry aku ada belajar topik Financing Oral Healthcare. sumber kewangan untuk bidang kesihatan datang dari pelbagai sumber, contohnya insurans, out-of-pocket dan sebagainyalah. ada negara amalkan polisi semua rakyat kena ada insurans untuk dapatkan rawatan, ada jugak yang half kerajaan cover dan ada jugak yang kerajaan cover sampai certain limit. bagi negara kita, aku boleh kata yang kita ni terlalu beruntung sebab duit yang kita perlu keluarkan sikit sangat. kita sangat manja in terms of kesihatan tapi kita sangat malas menjaga kesihatan yang harganya jauh lebih mahal dari ubat-ubatan.

aku sangat sedih bila ada post kat Fb pasal ubat yang patient tak makan, expired dan akhirnya terbuang begitu sahaja. just sebab kau tak bayar tak bermakna kau boleh sesuka hati nak makan tak nak makan. ada orang sanggup bayar berapa je untuk ubat penyakit diorang tapi ada jugak orang yang berpenyakit tapi tak bersyukur dan tak nak makan ubat dan sembuh. sungguh aku tak faham.

jadi, manusia sekalian, silalah compliant pada ubat yang doktor suruh makan. harga sebuah kehidupan bila korang ikut nasihat doktor tu jauh lagi mahal dari harga ubat yang korang bayar tu. dalam hal ni kita kena bersyukur, walaupun harga barang naik bagai tapi at least untuk ubat yang korang perlukan untuk survive tu harganya masih lagi 'murah'.

sekian mekasih.

annoying

making yourself look bad too much are sometimes annoying. in fact everyone go through hard times everyday, whoever you are.

please stop. the last thing you ever want to happen is someone talking behind your back that they are annoyed with you.